Hello!
It’s the middle of Feb, and I haven’t blogged in over a month, I know! Teaching got on top of me, and left me with literally no time, or space in my brain to think of blogs to write, and evenings to write them in. Although, saying that, currently in my drafts are 3 unfinished blogs- brain blocks at their finest!
But I’m back, it’s half term and thank you to anyone who is still interested and reading :). Now to the point!
I spent this morning doing one of my most favourite things in the world- Trampolining. I am 25 and a week old and still nothing fills me with such excitement, joy and happiness than chucking myself all over the place on a trampoline, trying out crazy moves.
Last year I got back into trampolining, after 6-8 months out whilst I started my NQT year, and I couldn’t be happier. I know that it keeps me fit, motivated, and best of all, I think it does wonders for my mental health. They say that 10 minutes of trampolining is better than 30 minutes jogging along the road. No matter how I am feeling before I go into training, when I finish, I feel so much better and dare I say it calmer.
Now… today I competed in the Regional Qualifiers as part of the O16 Intermediate Ladies category. It was lots of fun, and I was able to compete my new routine for the first time. All going well, I should have been in the individual finals and my difficulty score was on track. It didn’t go as well as I had hoped, I ended up 10th, having had one of my moves counted as repeated (because it looked more piked, than straight… oops!). I have an awful tendency to over analyse everything I do, and think about it for way longer than is necessary.
Today was no different. When I knew I hadn’t made the finals, I sat there thinking I must not be good enough, Why hadn’t I landed better? Why hadn’t I jumped higher to get a better time of flight? Why didn’t I straighten my legs, just that little bit more so it was straight, rather than a little piked? I am sure everyone does this and it makes me wonder why? Why do we painstakingly comb through every minute detail of performance, and pick up on our faults? It is something that really interests me. What about all the things that went right today? For example I made it through both routines, with a fairly good time of flight, I competed a completely new routine, and my Lazy Back Cody flew, which it doesn’t always.
The best thing of all, I, along with my teammates won team gold! My two other teammates smashed it, and along with my scores we beat the field to take away a gold medal- surely that’s something to be proud of?
It just goes to show, you can plan to the very last detail, but if you’re slightly ‘out of the zone’ or as was the case today, your legs like jelly, and ears blocked to high heaven, everything can fall down. Sure, I was disappointed and annoyed at myself for not doing the routine as well as I knew I could, and I spent the next three or so hours over-analysing every detail; but, at the end of the day I tried my best, and did all I could to secure my place in those finals in that moment. Today it just wasn’t enough and analysing it anymore will make me miserable!
Back into training and onto the next big step; Double Backs! I can’t wait :).
Sinead xx
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